hm.. recently there just isnt anything particularly interesting dat makes me feel lyk blogging. weepsss :(
exams r arnd the corner but i still hafta do stupid projects and hurry up finish up with my driving lessons by the end of next wk. sigh suddenly feel v busy n cant find the motivation to study. just feel v restless and sian abt sch :(
dis is such a sad post. weepsss.. :'( lol
random thoughts at 10:20:00 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
hmm 19th march 2006 was a weird day. sum1 was v bad to me :( lol but it's a date dat must b remembered! i dun really noe if i'll regret succumbing to all the pestering (bleahs) yet, but someday i'll noe if it's the right choice or not lah. so in the meantime, i'll just do my part in trying to make things work out :)
random thoughts at 6:12:00 AM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i hate ntu pple. filled with thieves n dishonest assholes.
take my money by all means, but return me my i/c, pdl, atm card,...!
sucker.
random thoughts at 4:17:00 AM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
hahaha i have a green hamster n a blue pig! i think they look cute. bleahs :P
random thoughts at 7:23:00 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
but anyways, apart from the irritating lousy internet connection, the day went q well 2day :D had driving in the morn n the instructor 2day was the best one i'v gotten in q some time. seems lyk i'm just not fated to b allocated to those instructors dat i think r really gd, so i doubt it'll b seeing dat nicenice instructor again :(
went for final theory practice n the evaluation immediately after dat, n i passed it, so now just gotta wait for 27/3 to arrive n i can get over n done with the final theory test. the practice n evaluation were quite easy so i guess the test itself wldnt b a problem lah. really just wan to hurry up n finish stage 3 so i can get a test date b4 my pdl expires in early august.. it's lyk stressing me out man! everyday i'll go n check the test dates n hope dat they wun jump too fast n so far so gd.. i shd still b able to make it in time. *prays for gd instructors who dun go strictly by the book n r not so fussy n hard to please* bleahs~ will go learn class 2B after i'm done with class 3 :D
rushed to sch for OB tutorial after dat n volunteered myself for the knowledge sharing session cos it's on leadership n i just felt dat it was v appropriate to talk abt mr yong cos the theories n models seem to fit him so well! haha but aiyah, i volunteered also partly cos as long as i dun do knowledge sharing, i'll hafta b worried wk after wk, wondering when mr thomas is ever going to call on me. seriously i think OB tutorials r the most useless of all. every wk every1 just sits arnd a table in our own grps to discuss things dat i dun really find v relevant to OB (particularly cos every1 just jokes arnd n give q crappy answers). but who can blame us? the tutorial is really very poorly structured. anw i was q pleased with my knowledge sharing. bleahs
had biz law lecture too, but ry n i werent paying much attention lah. we were too busy talking. haha! hm.. was sharing with her my "little surprise" dat i received the day b4. oh. i really hope the person in front wasnt eavesdropping, considering dat she's a mutual fren.. but aiyah doesnt really matter. i din say anything dat cldnt b let out, n honestly n i dun think she's gossipy enuf to tell any1 abt wad she heard (IF she heard it at all).
the weekend dat just passed was quite.. eventful in some sense. lol went holland V with peiling to study (tho i think we spent more time chatting, sipping our yummy tea n eating the cute-but-not-so-tasty smiley fries than doing proper work), den we later headed to have a nice drink. 1-for-1 Erdinger! haha i think we both got just a little woozy but after the bus ride home i was alright alr :P really enjoyed myself, hanging out with my oldest buddy. u cant possibly ask for a better way to spend a saturday yah?
sunday.. haha sunday was such a weird day i dun even noe how to describe it. i shd probably just call it the "Now or Never" sunday lor. hahaha cant reveal too much details abt dat but basically dat was wad my last post was generally abt lah. i dun lyk to b forced. yeah.. but the weird thing is, after dat we'r alright again. which i find is very pointless. i really shd sit down n think carefully abt wad i wan some time soon n just stop wasting everybody's time. exams r just arnd the corner n i dowan to go on another round of emotional rollercoaster ride again dis time. i really wan some As! haiz.. bestow at least an A on me pls.. i'm sick of getting all Bs last sem! even A- will do. haha :D
i'm just q happy 2day. also dun really noe y. hm no, actually i think i do, but truthfully, i'm not v sure abt how i feel towards certain things. BUT, i dowan to think so much alr. wad's mine will b not b able to run away from me. wad's not mine will nv stay with me no matter how hard i try to keep it by my side. yah? no matter wad will happen in the future, i just hope every1 will b happy lah. most imptly, i hope i'll b the happiest! (yes, selfish me. but dis is my blog. bleahs)
random thoughts at 9:23:00 AM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
heard some things dat i dun really wan to noe, but after hearing them, i dun really feel anything much also. mayb deep down inside i'v already expected it. wad else can explain the way things have turned out to b? but i suppose i did feel a small wave of disappointment when i heard of the indifferent attitude u seemed so sure abt. i noe u noe alot of things, but since u refuse to tell me, i can only make guesses. but u din rebutt wad i said so i'll take it as my guess is right. then again, a little tiny part of me refuses to believe it's true. how can it b true? if it really is, den the only thing i can say again is dat all the more it proves my point dat u'v been telling me is wrong. retarded.
it's not possible to regret sth if u dun think abt it.. or at least, dat's wad i think. so will i regret if i miss my chance? God noes. on the other hand, there'r also certain things dat after months or years of constant thinking, there'r no regrets abt some decisions dat i still firmly stand by. n i'm proud of myself for being able to say dat. mayb in others' opinions, wad happened was foolish n cld have been prevented. but ultimately, i dun care wad others' think as long as we'r happy with the outcome, which i suppose we r.
hm.. but anw, i'm just really glad dat i din falter at the crucial moment last nite. i wldnt b able to forgive myself for being a mindless idiot if i did sth dat i'm not sure is the right thing or the thing dat i wan to do. lyk i said, "i dun lyk to b forced."
random thoughts at 3:05:00 PM